Yesterday was one of the hardest day to go through, I was totally running in amok as i was going through it...And to make things worse I was caught by the pressing sight of depression and uncontrolled emotions....
Explaining it would be time consuming and running it through it again would mean death to me (mentally). I dunno why I was caught by it.. maybe it's because I stopped thinking straight and making the wrong decisions...
I am a different man after the Depression hit me yesterday... This is all thanks to my twin and my best friend Alana who snapped me back into reality and making me think again.. Writing this is not easy for me as I tend to think about it too often at times.... The thing is when im depressed I tend to hurt myself and because of that my head hurts and god-damn its throbbing in there...
I shall not go back and next time I will be more careful on the emotions I come across and if not i might lead back at step one....
As for my feeling towards her, Its getting stronger but the time is nt right as she is taking her finals soon soo i dont wanna disturb her or anything....
After all tht have been said, Depression is hard to suppress and counter... soo better avoid at all times peeps..
STRONG FAITH, STRONG MIND!!!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Emotion of mine explained
For the past few days there was a bee in my mind tht i just cant ignore, then one night i decide to look into the bee thts been buzzin in my mind and then i saw tht the bee special someone tht i personally think is interesting and caring at the same time being who she is...
Im nt gonna make it too apparent and recognisable soo im just gonna skip the Hu-Ha and get down to terms of my life... I think i've found an interesting, caring and fun person to be with.. But the thing is im kinda embarrassed to S.O.L (shout out loud) abt it...
Writing this down im starting to feel comfortable abt myself as im expressing the tid-bits and stuff... Im not making this up, i've fallen from the sky by and arrow tht hits me straight at the senses and my heart...
Many times i've overlooked her for the true being she really is, after all this time she was right there, smiling and waving... haha, i could hate myself for overlooking her...
But the thing is she doesn't noe and im intending to keep is on the down low for the time being as i dont want to disturb her in her studies... time will tell the true tale and maybe time will allow me to tell her.. haha
As for nw im struck in the heart and i've fallen...
Adieu and with this STRONG FAITH, STRONG MIND
Im nt gonna make it too apparent and recognisable soo im just gonna skip the Hu-Ha and get down to terms of my life... I think i've found an interesting, caring and fun person to be with.. But the thing is im kinda embarrassed to S.O.L (shout out loud) abt it...
Writing this down im starting to feel comfortable abt myself as im expressing the tid-bits and stuff... Im not making this up, i've fallen from the sky by and arrow tht hits me straight at the senses and my heart...
Many times i've overlooked her for the true being she really is, after all this time she was right there, smiling and waving... haha, i could hate myself for overlooking her...
But the thing is she doesn't noe and im intending to keep is on the down low for the time being as i dont want to disturb her in her studies... time will tell the true tale and maybe time will allow me to tell her.. haha
As for nw im struck in the heart and i've fallen...
Adieu and with this STRONG FAITH, STRONG MIND
Monday, January 25, 2010
Promises and Neglect
Again i see people in my life going on making promises with sweet word and stuff just to neglect it... WHY does this happen??? To me promises are a great deal, u breat it and thts the end of us man, friendship and all...
But my real topic here is abt relationships... Usually the guys go and make sweet promises (im nt saying tht only guys make them) and then they just turn their backs on it giving fussy excuses, like im BZ, too much work, im stressed, and all the things u can imagine, yes i noe some of u have gone through this and i for one understand...
Ok guys, most of the time u say and promises tht u would make it up for ur absence in the girls life then when she asks u to meet them u go and say "oh sry la syg im BZ", then the girl asks "bile boleh jumpe??" the guy goes "I BZ skang, Later...".....
Now hw would u feel guys if u were in the girls shoes?? she hopes tht u would fulfill ur words and try to comfort her.... And my brothers lying is the worst things u can do to ur partner... its no joke once they find tht u lie to them, they will never trust u fully again.... Solving this "Promises and Neglect" Problem is nt easy as u have to change, this i noe as guys have an extremely difficult EGO to overcome..
Lets put this aside and for once try to think whts best for ur relationship... never think abt urself in a relationship... it will hurt the both of u when it does and it hurts me to see it all happen, yes there are ups and downs but y stop trying??
Rules of relatioon ship is nt only for fun, its for the love, attention (even a minor one would do), support, and help it gives.... soo if u think ur emotions are much more important than ur partner, u are nt fit for a relationship...
As for nw im done saying wht i think is worth saying...
STRONG FAITH, STRONG MIND
But my real topic here is abt relationships... Usually the guys go and make sweet promises (im nt saying tht only guys make them) and then they just turn their backs on it giving fussy excuses, like im BZ, too much work, im stressed, and all the things u can imagine, yes i noe some of u have gone through this and i for one understand...
Ok guys, most of the time u say and promises tht u would make it up for ur absence in the girls life then when she asks u to meet them u go and say "oh sry la syg im BZ", then the girl asks "bile boleh jumpe??" the guy goes "I BZ skang, Later...".....
Now hw would u feel guys if u were in the girls shoes?? she hopes tht u would fulfill ur words and try to comfort her.... And my brothers lying is the worst things u can do to ur partner... its no joke once they find tht u lie to them, they will never trust u fully again.... Solving this "Promises and Neglect" Problem is nt easy as u have to change, this i noe as guys have an extremely difficult EGO to overcome..
Lets put this aside and for once try to think whts best for ur relationship... never think abt urself in a relationship... it will hurt the both of u when it does and it hurts me to see it all happen, yes there are ups and downs but y stop trying??
Rules of relatioon ship is nt only for fun, its for the love, attention (even a minor one would do), support, and help it gives.... soo if u think ur emotions are much more important than ur partner, u are nt fit for a relationship...
As for nw im done saying wht i think is worth saying...
STRONG FAITH, STRONG MIND
Hijab and Boys
A few days back i heard a friend complaining about girls and hijabs... i dont get it, i noe its compulsory for all muslim girls to wear it, but u dont have to force the person to wear it as it is a very2 personal matter....
Brothers, wht if ur GFs tell u to change just because ur with the person? It would suck right? same goes to the principal of hijabs.... If u even try to change her she will get pissed as u are invading her privacy on how and wht to wear..
The term of hijab an boys tht i use is very specific.... this because undoubtedly most muslim boys with a strong grip in faith would prefer their girls to wear a hijab, but cmon u can ask but u cant force the someone to change in an instant.... oh yes i've heard so many ranting about girls and their hijab.....
Then comes the concept of understanding girls with or without hijab, not all girls tht doesn't wear hijab are bad, I personally noe these people who are kind at heart caring and a good friend...
And my brothers, nt all girls tht wear hijab are good.. trust me i've seen and it terrifies me to see such things... haha
And if you my brothers ARE content on changing her, why dont u change urself?? change urself to understand tht she is nt use to wearing a hijab? soo my brothers, take my word, study it, and insyallah u will understand....
As for me it has been spoken and writen all thts left is to be read...
Strong Faith, Strong Mind
Brothers, wht if ur GFs tell u to change just because ur with the person? It would suck right? same goes to the principal of hijabs.... If u even try to change her she will get pissed as u are invading her privacy on how and wht to wear..
The term of hijab an boys tht i use is very specific.... this because undoubtedly most muslim boys with a strong grip in faith would prefer their girls to wear a hijab, but cmon u can ask but u cant force the someone to change in an instant.... oh yes i've heard so many ranting about girls and their hijab.....
Then comes the concept of understanding girls with or without hijab, not all girls tht doesn't wear hijab are bad, I personally noe these people who are kind at heart caring and a good friend...
And my brothers, nt all girls tht wear hijab are good.. trust me i've seen and it terrifies me to see such things... haha
And if you my brothers ARE content on changing her, why dont u change urself?? change urself to understand tht she is nt use to wearing a hijab? soo my brothers, take my word, study it, and insyallah u will understand....
As for me it has been spoken and writen all thts left is to be read...
Strong Faith, Strong Mind
Sunday, January 24, 2010
First steps....
Starting a new life is nw easy as we noe from experience when we leave a certain past life behind and trying to start a new one...
As of me im starting this new voyage called blogging.. i have done it a few times when i was younger but i could never keep tabs on it soo i think this time this blog stays...
Some might find the title of my blog site which is Blood, Tears and Faith to be a bit disturbing... there is a reason for the weird or grusome name, it is to reflect the life tht i will go through in my life as i noe it is nt easy....
as for this one i think im done with it and i think im satisfied...
as for me till next time... Strong faith, strong mind!
As of me im starting this new voyage called blogging.. i have done it a few times when i was younger but i could never keep tabs on it soo i think this time this blog stays...
Some might find the title of my blog site which is Blood, Tears and Faith to be a bit disturbing... there is a reason for the weird or grusome name, it is to reflect the life tht i will go through in my life as i noe it is nt easy....
as for this one i think im done with it and i think im satisfied...
as for me till next time... Strong faith, strong mind!
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